Hope We Can Be Friend...

This is the last post about Joshua...
tonight, i asked him for a date,.. i dont know why, but,.. mungkin cuma perasaan gw, tapi gw rasa it wont going anywhere. i got his sign.
eventhough he didnt tell me, but i truly understand it's mean a No-No. mungkin dia memberikan jawaban seperti kemaren cuma karena dia ga enak ma gw, i fully understand about that. tapi kenapa dia justru merepotkan diri sendiri? just say it kalau memang dari awal sudah Tidak.. gw ga pengen ngeliat lo merepotkan diri sendiri.
from the first sign, ketika gw ajak nonton, dia dateng, tepat waktu ketika film mulai, mungkin memang dia ga mau menghabiskan waktu buat ngobrol,ketika sudah selese gw mencoba buat ngerangkul dia, as friend, ga lebih.. dia jaga jarak, menghindar, i got his next sign, it wont going anywhere,.. he really nice guy, dia tetep mencoba ngejaga perasaan gw.. tapi kenapa dia justru merepotkan diri sendiri?
But I believe,the show must go on, and also my life..
Sedih, Kecewa, pasti adalah perasaan itu, tapi setidaknya gw udah jujur dengan hidupku sendiri.. i'm stronger because of you. thanks.
Joshua,terima kasih setidaknya lo pernah singgah dalam hidup gw, and i hope we can be friend, like what you've said to me... =]